Welcome to the new Waterfall Journey website, one we hope that will be informative, helpful, interactive and accessible to those who are walking this journey through life. It isn’t meant to be exclusive to the few but inclusive to all who want to live a Kingdom life as Jesus taught us. If you have something to share then please email it in using thewaterfalljourney@gmail.com, we’d love to hear from you about your journey and what’s helping you along the way.
When Angie asked me to do an introductory blog to the new Waterfall Journey web site, I wondered what I should bring you, other than to admit to being a little anxious. Thinking back across my own Waterfall journey since January 2011, I mused on just how really anxious I was the day I first crossed Angie’s threshold and internally, felt like I had failed to be strong enough to cope with life anymore and was now being thrown into the lion pit !
The view from Highcliffe in Dorset towards the Isle of Whyte, on an autumn evening where I decided I couldn’t keep dragging my past hurts & grief around with me. I contacted Angie for help.
I had been fighting every prompt and inclination for over a decade, from those who loved and cared for me, to get help with the mental and spiritual wounds, hurts, doubts and mistakes in my past. I sat in her little living room, wondering what I had done to bring me to this point in life where I had run out of self protection resources and how soon I could get out again.
A million thoughts seemed to crash around in my head and I felt like I was going to burst emotionally. Plan A was definitely not to ‘let her in’ to see the inner me, that was far too scary and even I hadn’t been there for fear of what I’d really find. I would play it cool, continue to show my controlled exterior and tell my wife this Waterfall and counselling stuff wasn’t for me right now and emotionally hide again in the back of my proverbial ‘cave’.
Oh how wrong could I be ? It took just a few minutes in Angie’s company, with her smiley face and calm, safe reassuring manner and gentle yet probing questions, before I was pouring out my grief and woes and fears. I think I probably started circular breathing and didn’t stop talking at all for the first hour. And I cried for the first time in a decade and it felt so good, like she had lifted a massive concrete block off of my back.
Angie helped me to meet ‘little Mark’, the young me inside, who had believed so many lies and misunderstandings as I grew up and who had learned how to survive what I thought was ‘normal life’. I realised I hardly knew myself.
Me aged 4. I started to remember my emotions at this age.
I knew then that I was starting to experience freedom, freedom from grief, freedom from emotional pain, freedom from fears and things that had held me back, freedom to start being who I really was, in Angie’s words “ the man God made you to be Mark”. And she started to show me that God wasn’t the angry vengeful man I’d been taught about but a loving caring good Father, who wants the very best for me. That day was the start of what has been an amazing journey to where I am today.
This blog isn’t the place for my testimony, but perhaps we will have a page on the website for all of our testimonies and stories, and we’ve all got one, each one unique and so very different from anyone else’s. And each one is important, even though many of us don’t think it is. It’s is what has shaped and made us who and what we are today.
The good news is that it doesn’t have to stay the way it is, the way we’ve got used to. With God the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, I hope and pray that you will travel the Waterfall Journey with the Trinity and make the choice to be the person you have been created to be. To be able to live daily in the knowledge that you are loved and that you belong to God, that He has given you meaning and purpose in His plans and that you have value and worth in His Kingdom and to all those Christian brothers and sisters on their journeys too as we tread life’s path together.
Gods blessings to all
Mark
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